As many of you noticed, a few weeks ago I disappeared from social media while struggling with a relapse of depression and suicide. The last month has been extremely hard on me and while I actually feel a lot better in recent days, I know when Ryan’s birthday comes up on the 28th, I am going to breakdown again. Due to this, I have decided to retreat from public life for a while and work on bettering myself privately. This means I will not be online much and will not be talking to anyone outside my daily life. This is the only way I can think of to progress forward and continue healing.
I want to apologize for scaring you guys, especially those I told goodbye. While it was meant as a farewell, I should have been more responsible and respectful. I am so overwhelmed by the support and kindness you guys have shown me and I will be forever thankful no matter what happens. I still firmly believe it gets better, but that has to be achieved through hard work and perseverance - something I need to do on my own. So with that said, I just want to reiterate how thankful I am to have so many people who care about me and how sorry I am that I continue to fall short of what you need me to be.
Be proud, be strong, be brave, and never forget it gets better.